Sunday, April 27, 2008
jun published at 4/27/2008 08:46:00 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
its so ironic.
the selfishness of it all.
fear.
pretense.
big talk and all.
caring about others.
when in fact.
deep down inside.
you know.
you know.
jun published at 4/23/2008 04:30:00 PM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
today was fun fun fun =)
floorball competition at tampines cc.
all our girl teams got into quarter finals!!
played quarter finals then we lost to this super noob team.
through penalty shots damn.
they werent even good we took like millions of shots.
but then. sigh.
was quite pissed off at how badly i played.
oh well one of our teams got second overall!! yayyyyyyy.
then again how i wished it was either bingxin or my team that were playing against them for first and second.
we werent any worse than the top team la.
during round robin we actually drew with them.
1-1 and that was because i let in a really really stupid goal.
sigh.
oh well.
it was still awesome fun!!
went home by bus 28 with gary, jianhong and jiawei.
the garis (gary + iris) bluff me la. he said 28 is the fastest way home.
gary's the guy to ask when anyone need to take bus or mrt. he is supposed to know like every single bus route.
supposed.
i took one and a half hours home okay.
wanted to kill gary after that. haha.
but it was super fun on the bus the three of us talked for the whole journey.
like one and a half hours of ongoing conversation.
super interesting.
it was like some gossiping session about the whole team.
and yes, guys do gossip. =DD
super fun =)
i like today.
its a nice nice day.
jun published at 4/06/2008 07:56:00 PM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
i am stuck in this stupid rat race.
and so are you whos reading this post.
dont tell me you are joining the rat race when you enter the workforce.
you are already in it.
one week of illness leaves me panicky.
i want straight As for A levels.
i want to do well for nationals.
like who doesnt.
my mum tells me to slow down. just take it easy.
i am a perfectionist. academics, floorball, music everything.
and then ill fall sick. really sick. those type that last for around a week, skip school a few days.
and im glad. im thankful for the break. but i start to get panicky once im well.
today my dad called from overseas. he said the same thing. take it easy. relax.
so what if you dont get As? its enough to just get into university.
but i cant. i cant just relax. ive been stuck in the rat race for as long as i remember.
top grades.
top music diplomas.
top cca records, they just have to be better than others.
top everything.
thats the whole problem you see.
i cant get out of the rat race.
i cant just drop out right now, when its one of my most crucial years.
im afraid that i wont be able to drop out, or at least slow down one day.
i can even foresee it happening.
top career. rich. successful. big house.
top husband. top kids. top schools.
its crazy. im not exactly sure thats what i want.
what about the other things in life?
relationships, relaxation,
the whole 'stopping to smell the flowers' concept?
opportunity cost, the sacrifices,
less time for family, friends,
myself even,
to read more novels,
to go swimming,
to catch up with old friends, (bet ill have a lot of catching up to do)
to just have breakfast with my family,
maybe i should do all that.
one of these days.
but right now, i have to return to my work.
to the rat race.
ive rested for approximately 1/2 an hour. mann.
imagine how much the others have caught up.
jun published at 4/02/2008 08:08:00 PM